Hayat dedi\u011fin, \u00e7o\u011fu zaman tela\u015fla ge\u00e7ip giden bir g\u00fcn\u00fcn ortas\u0131nda i\u00e7ilen bir \u00e7ay gibidir. Bir yudum al\u0131rs\u0131n, s\u0131cakt\u0131r, i\u00e7ini \u0131s\u0131t\u0131r. O an her \u015fey bir nebze olsun durulur. Ama fark etmeden, o \u00e7ay da so\u011fur; t\u0131pk\u0131 an\u0131lar gibi. K\u0131ymetini bilmezsen, ge\u00e7ip gider.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Biz insanlar zaman\u0131n k\u0131ymetini \u00e7o\u011funlukla onu kaybettikten sonra anl\u0131yoruz. Hep bir ko\u015fturmaca, hep bir sonraya b\u0131rakma hali\u2026 \u201cSonra konu\u015furuz,\u201d \u201cYar\u0131n arar\u0131m,\u201d \u201cBir ara u\u011frar\u0131m,\u201d diye erteledi\u011fimiz her \u015fey birikir. Ve \u00e7o\u011fu zaman \u201co ara\u201d hi\u00e7 gelmez. Ya\u015fanmas\u0131 gereken bir an ge\u00e7mi\u015f, o \u00e7ay so\u011fumu\u015f olur. Oysa hayat, asl\u0131nda o anlarda gizlidir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
G\u00fcnl\u00fck tela\u015flar\u0131n aras\u0131nda, durup \u015f\u00f6yle bir soluklanmak, pencereden d\u0131\u015far\u0131 bak\u0131p g\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131na selam vermek, \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n sesini duymak, sevdiklerinle sessizce oturmak\u2026 Bunlar k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, ama ger\u00e7ekte hayat\u0131n as\u0131l \u00f6z\u00fc onlard\u0131r. Kimse o \u00e7ok me\u015fgul oldu\u011fu i\u015f toplant\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 ya da gelen e-postalar\u0131 hat\u0131rlamaz y\u0131llar sonra. Hat\u0131rlananlar, birlikte i\u00e7ilen bir \u00e7ay\u0131n s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131d\u0131r. Kimi zaman bir dost sohbetinde, kimi zaman bir annenin sessizce uzatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 fincanda, kimi zaman ise bir vedan\u0131n son yudumunda\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Zaman ge\u00e7miyor de\u011fil. Sen o zaman\u0131 dolu ya\u015fam\u0131yorsun. Sabahlar\u0131 tela\u015fla haz\u0131rlan\u0131rken aynaya bak\u0131yor ama kendini g\u00f6rm\u00fcyorsun. Telefon ekran\u0131na defalarca bak\u0131yorsun ama \u00e7ocu\u011funun g\u00f6zlerinin i\u00e7ine ka\u00e7 kere bakt\u0131n, hat\u0131rlam\u0131yorsun. Hep daha fazlas\u0131n\u0131n pe\u015findesin ama elindekinin tad\u0131n\u0131 unuttun. S\u0131cak bir \u00e7ay i\u00e7erken sadece onun s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissedebiliyorsan, o an\u0131n fark\u0131ndas\u0131n demektir. Hayat da b\u00f6yle bir \u015feydir i\u015fte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kaybettiklerimiz, belki art\u0131k yan\u0131m\u0131zda olmayanlar, s\u00f6ylenmemi\u015f s\u00f6zler ya da pi\u015fmanl\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131z\u2026 Bunlar her insanda var. Ama as\u0131l mesele, hala elimizde kalan zamanla ne yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z. Hala hayat s\u0131cak. Hala bir fincan \u00e7ay uzatacak dostlar var belki. Belki hala aramak istedi\u011fin biri o telefona cevap verebilir. Belki hala i\u00e7inden gelen bir \u015feyleri yazabilirsin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hayat\u0131n uzunlu\u011fu, takvim yapraklar\u0131nda de\u011fil; bir an\u0131n i\u00e7imizi ne kadar \u0131s\u0131tt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda gizli. Bazen bir c\u00fcmle, bazen bir bak\u0131\u015f, bazen de bir fincan \u00e7ay kadar basittir mutluluk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yani, e\u011fer hala s\u0131caksa o \u00e7ay\u2026 otur, i\u00e7. Hayat\u0131n tad\u0131n\u0131 \u015fimdi \u00e7\u0131kar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sevgiyle kal\u0131n. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Hayat dedi\u011fin, \u00e7o\u011fu zaman tela\u015fla ge\u00e7ip giden bir g\u00fcn\u00fcn ortas\u0131nda i\u00e7ilen bir \u00e7ay gibidir. Bir yudum al\u0131rs\u0131n, s\u0131cakt\u0131r, i\u00e7ini \u0131s\u0131t\u0131r.…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1792,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1791","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-kisisel-gelisim-bilgi"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kayaismail.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1791","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kayaismail.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kayaismail.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kayaismail.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kayaismail.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1791"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.kayaismail.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1791\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1793,"href":"https:\/\/www.kayaismail.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1791\/revisions\/1793"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kayaismail.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1792"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kayaismail.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1791"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kayaismail.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1791"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kayaismail.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1791"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}