K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir an, b\u00fcy\u00fck bir derstir bazen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kimsenin durup anlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131, \u00fczerine konu\u015fmad\u0131\u011f\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ama senin i\u00e7ini sessizce yakan bir ger\u00e7ektir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
O anla birlikte fark edersin:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Art\u0131k baz\u0131 \u015feyleri ayn\u0131 yerden g\u00f6remezsin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ayn\u0131 insanlara ayn\u0131 g\u00fcveni duyamazs\u0131n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ayn\u0131 c\u00fcmleleri ayn\u0131 samimiyetle kuramazs\u0131n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck an, sende b\u00fcy\u00fck bir kopu\u015f yaratm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Belki sadece bir s\u00f6z.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Belki bir suskunluk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Belki de bir ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n yoklu\u011fu\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ama o anla birlikte i\u00e7indeki \u201ceski sen\u201d kapanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
O ana kadar sabretmi\u015fsindir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Beklemi\u015fsindir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0130dare etmi\u015fsindir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kendini avutmu\u015fsundur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Belki de \u201cben b\u00fcy\u00fct\u00fcyorumdur\u201d diye susmu\u015fsundur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ama o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck an gelir ve art\u0131k kendine bile yalan s\u00f6yleyemez hale gelirsin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0130\u015fte tam oras\u0131, de\u011fi\u015fimin ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerdir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sessizce bir devrim olur i\u00e7inde.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ba\u011flar kopmaz belki hemen ama g\u00fcven \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcl\u00fcr, inan\u00e7 da\u011f\u0131l\u0131r, masumiyet g\u00f6lgelenir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ve sen, fark\u0131nda olmadan ba\u015fka birine d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fmeye ba\u015flars\u0131n\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
O k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck an seni yaln\u0131zla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131r belki.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc art\u0131k eskisi gibi kalabal\u0131klar\u0131n i\u00e7inde g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyemezsin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Her \u015feyin \u00fczerine s\u00fcnger \u00e7ekemezsin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yutkunamazs\u0131n. Katlanamazs\u0131n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ama bu yaln\u0131zl\u0131k, bir \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fc\u015f de\u011fil\u2026 bir uyan\u0131\u015ft\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc art\u0131k herkesle de\u011fil, sadece hak edenlerle kalmak istersin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc kalabal\u0131kta de\u011fil, kendinde \u00e7o\u011falmak istersin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Daha suskun olursun.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Art\u0131k her \u015feyi anlatmak istemezsin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ama i\u00e7 sesin g\u00fc\u00e7lenmi\u015ftir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kendini ilk kez duymaya ba\u015flars\u0131n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Baz\u0131 insanlar seni b\u0131rak\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Baz\u0131 hayaller senden kopar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Baz\u0131 ger\u00e7ekler g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn i\u00e7ine bakar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ve sen ilk kez:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cBen \u015fimdi ne istiyorum?\u201d diye sorars\u0131n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
K\u0131r\u0131k bir aynada g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn par\u00e7alanm\u0131\u015f halin, sana b\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6sterir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
O k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck an, her \u015feyin bitti\u011fi yer de\u011fil\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kendinle tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n yerdir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ger\u00e7ekle kal\u0131n.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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